hmm...yesterday was cool...i hung out at joey's house.. it was a party/hang out. Hmm so much crap has happened lately... and yesterday was like driving the last nail. And i was the one to "drive the last nail" so to speak to a certain person. To that person...i am sorry. No matter how much i try no matter wat i do, my ANGER gets the best of me. Thats not right. Because in the end i get nothing but stress 4 being angry, plus the added discomfort and hurt and pain i cause others at the same time. Heh thats crap. Ive hurt someone i really care about too much. I can do nothing but feel sorry and call myself an idiot..an ass..a loser..a fool...watever. But i cant go on pitying myself. Nor can i let my past haunt me. And no..i will no longer let it haunt me. I may have done many things wrong in my life...but instead of sittin there and "reflecting" on them, i will do the smarter thing. I will LEARN from them. and i will learn to know wat NOT to do...it may not be as good as knowing WAT TO DO...but hey..its a start. So to the person that ive hurt the most...i am sorry..i truly care about u.. and i will do my best to be here 4 u. I may have been hurt..but dammit.. it wont get in the way anymore.. i wont let it. Though u probably feel things will not be the same again...i understand that.. but i am here IF u need me. Ive said too many lies...to many things on pure anger..no longer can i hurt people i love...i cant...i cant.
posted by Philip at 10:11 PM